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is my worst friend....

i love it!  it has helped in so many ways,

i like the way it makes me feel all relaxed and care free.
that's not it's main job
it is supposed to help me concentrate in school and at home.
which it does.

but it keeps my mind focused on one thing
it keeps me from the usual chaotic spider web of thought that makes me all anxious.
so anxiety is pretty much gone when i am on it.

but it has its drawbacks...
depending on the dosage my mood is always alternating

low dosages make extremely aggressive.
i am easily annoyed
become reclusive
hermit like.
quiet
i lose my appetite
i get insomnia

i also get very sensitive
not just emotionally
but physically!
cold becomes colder
everything is magnified
yeah it sounds nice
but it is not all good
human contact becomes literally painful
i hate it
this makes me even more irritable...

but there are good things
especially when the dosage is high anough
i find that 25 milligrams
will keep me in  a zen like state
i feel affection for everything..

it is good.