1 post tagged “contempt”

i kid you not...
mom just found out my dad ran off on his second wife with a 14 or 15 year old girl.

no big surprise now that i think about it.
it is quite a common practice in more rural places of Guerrero

but i have been living in the U.S. for so long,
i kind find that scenario a bit disturbing...

but yeah, in retrospect,
dad is a very handsome man in his mid 40's
he as certainly taken good care of himself
he is very charismatic too.
e was always the type of guy you wanted to be around in social events

when mom told me, she  "subtly" tried to reassure me that he never cheated on her
that he was never a skirt seeking monster when he was with her

i didn't need her to do that.

i know he wasn't
he really was a good husband and father
.
i guess she sensed that i was a bit disturbed by the news
but it was for the wrong reason

goes to show normal this is back there...
but even if it's a common thing doesn't make it right!

she's 4 years younger than me!
she is the same age as my little brother!
she could be an 8th grader for god's sake!

since the divorce, things between him and i have already been a bit strained...
but this is a bit much
i am sad to say this,
but i cannot help it
he just isn't the guy i used to think he was...
he can't bring that back

mom has tried all these years to  keep that image of him intact
to  keep us remembering him like we did when were little,
when we believed he was the strongest man in the world
when he could do ANYTHING
when only he and Santa Clause were the only people in the world we could look up to.

she really has tried hard.
but over the years it as become exponentially difficult...

he has a new kid with his second wife.
i have 4 year old half brother that i will probably never meet.
what the fuck is he going to do now?!!
God knows he's not going to fight nail and tooth for custody of his child.

my contempt for my father is growing into something i am not proud enough to name...